Stress at the old Grind

I hate feeling anxious. Yet, I feel like the show is going to drop and I am going to get in some deep trouble at work. I hate it. Still my boss is a.... Lets says she doesnt make my quality of life any better. So stress and emotions cooked up this.

you silence deafens me
yearn for a verb or a letter uttered
even in anger or to inflict pain
question my sanity for still wanting
repressing my pain for just one bit of your attention.

Anniversaries

12 years of chains. It still bugs me that I can't talk to her abuot everything. She doesnt understand or judges. Sad.