Monday, November 27, 2006

status report

I will begin with my recent dream. I am in high school. I am thru with my lunch period. I panic. I do not know where to go. I forgot where my next class is. I go to the main office for a copy of my schedule. The person that would print out the schedule is not available. They are not in. I ask her, "Can't you print out a schedule?" She looks at me like please do not bother me. I respond, "Well...I guess i won't go to classes. Whatever!" I walk out. I'm sure there was more to the dream, but this is all i can remember for now.

In other news, I cooked our turkey on the grill. It was like I was a BBQ pit master. It was cool. I watched some TV while cooking the bird. My daughter cried cause the turkey had to die for our cause. It was kind of funny. I think she will eventually become a vegan. We shall see things unfold. This Thanksgiving Holiday was different. There was no drinking and tempers stayed cool. It is like a swiss army knife. We did really well. It was like we almost got it together. They turkey came out really good. I miss a lot of people.

I guess this brings me to my next topic. This season has been pretty rough on me. I am not sure why. Ok...I know why, but the taxi cab confession is not my style. Ok. It is, but not really feeling it right now. Melancholy has been making her appearences in my life a little more than I would like. I am really hoping I will climb out of this slump. I am not sure what is it going to take, but i am going to do it. It just takes me more time.

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Wednesday, November 22, 2006

her lips

try to reach into her soul
via her lips
breathing her in slowly
hoping it takes
the sense of being content
not asking for much
just a little bit of joy
enough to keep melancholy at a distance

she stops by looking in
asks me, "where have you been?"
need to talk to you
ignore her the best i can
focus on the moment of content
or do i prefer being malcontent
not sure which one
close my eyes for the time being
wishing it just passes

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Thursday, November 16, 2006

lost

searches for her love...
must have lost it somewhere...
is it in the box of toys...
blending into all those magical colors...
hard to see with half closed eyes...
wishes he was back...
in time.

when time was simple...
we could watch the snow fall...
not worrying about life...
enjoy the cold...
as the flakes fall on our hands...
on our face...
lost.

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Wednesday, November 08, 2006

cut to me mad typing...

here it is. we are wasting our time focusing on stupid and menial things in life. it is robbing us of our time. why do we have to worry about a movie we ordered on the net. trust me i know...i have done it. lost a day or two about it. as adults, we are flooded with some necessary and some unnecessary worries. this only make time fly by. i mean here it is november. what the heck?!?! where did all the months go? do i have anything to show for it? sure i do. i just hope we have memories that will last that make this year memorable. so guys...lets simply things a little. lets not worry about so many things. lets just let life happen. we will get from point a to point b. do not get me wrong. i am not advocating to living life blindly. plan. try to get stuff prepared. but do not worry about it. you will get to that bridge when you get to it.

on another note, last week was the week from hell. maybe this is why i am having a zen moment. i do not know. i was threatened at work. that was fun. i got so mad. i am a very patient person. i really am. many people can vouch for that. please do not try to unleash my madness. it is quite scary. at any rate, this person brought out the worst in me. work has been a little crazy dealing with people and their stupidity.