La que quiero

Si la ves pasando
Dile que la quiero
No me pesa su recuerdo
Siguo esperando
Nuestro turno juntos
Lo facil que es
sentirla en mi corazon
solo siguo esperando
que me dirija la mirada
una ternura
o una caricia
para darme los alientos
que necesito para seguir

La nota

Solo me tomo una semana
para limpiarme de ti
Tu veneno potente se expulso
en gotas de sangre
caido de mis ojos
como lagrimas de penas ajenas

ahora miro hacia el pasado
como una noche sola
de manos prestadas sin compromiso
suelto de todo sentido
solo pasar el tiempo
y acabar en un trago amargo

Tanto que me haces falta...

No tengo tiempo para recordarlo
Me pensa tanto que sigo olvidando
El hecho de no pensar en ti
Aun los alientos que me das
Son ajenos por no poderte responder.

I feel in love with nature today. I went for a walk during lunch. I do this on occasions. This is especially when I need to talk or vent to God or the universe. It helps clear my head. There is a park by my office. There are a lot of trees. The are shedding their seed. The circle things with the seed in the middle. They were all falling in the millions with the wind. It was just beautiful. It reminded me of a scene from Hero with Jet Li. It made me thankful to God. He did this. Maybe to cheer me up or maybe just because he wanted to. I was just lucky to be there to observe it.

Listening to Hello Seahorse! Bestia album. Song: Oso Polar.

Wanting...

I want to hold you.
your curves
your lips
eyes that burn into me
revealing my truths
my soul wants you
no matter how futile the impulse may seem
wants for you to love me
to return those sentiments
for you to think of me
hold me in your regards
yet you are always distant
leaving me outside in the cold
far from your warmth

The words that haunt me

She slips away from me in dream
no matter how hard I hold on
Her smile seems faint
don't want to close my eyes
fear she is gone
fading like...
an old photograph.

ok...the first line is what was on my mind. the rest just came to me.

La Sirena con la Luna

She calms the waters of my mind
Leaving no traces of the world on my soul
Her voice mending me

The nights our playground
We pretend our smiles mean nothing
Only to reveal our actions

Hinting at our Love.

El Corazón Perdido

esos besos que me distes
pense que fueron de amor
las palabras que me dijiste
pense que eran para dar alientos perdidos
esas miradas de coqueta
fueron confundidas por ternura
solo para encontrarme solo
confundido
queriendo mas de ti

las palabras olvidadas o mejor no dichas.

anoche pense en ti. momento debil en mi ser. recuerdos compuestos de lagrimas y sonrisas. sera que ya no existes. tal vez fuiste una ilusion. no puedo enfocar en ese tiempo. el dolor lo hace imposible. creo que el dolor sale de tu ausencia. te amo. poder tocarte otra vez. solo una vez rozar tu mano. besar tus labios y sentir contento. fue nomas un momento pequeño. aun me dejo impresionado. marcado por vida. comparandolas todas a tu nivel. al fin termino. sigue la vida. las palabras no dichas. olvidadas en el ether de mi mente.

te mando los besos

beso El Viento
pidiendole que te lo de por mi
esperando que el beso te encuentre bien
contenta y agusto
sera que me llamas con tu mente
sera que eres un sentido perdido
no lo se
pero dispuesto estoy
para descubrir lo que me espera

Su Sombra

ella me llama del pasado
del abismo de el olvido
su nombre la sombra
que cubre mis ojos
los que me quitan la intencion
del querer olvidar
y querer sentir
su cuerpo contra el mio
sus gemidos lentos
llenos de pasion
frutos de un amor
que no puede olvidar

Fumbling in the dark...

Green Day makes me think of her. I know why. I am not ready to divulge. I am getting some rest. Elijah is still not sleeping thru the night. He was good to me last night. He slept until 4:15 am. I was amazed. He is growing so fast.

I have been to some really good parties and have some really good drunk stories. I am taking baby steps in climbing out of my depression. I just need some good music and some good friends. I have both. You know who you are. I wrote something. This is a sign I am getting better. Here it is.

te necesito.
tus brazos que me apoyan
trocitos de tu corazon
que me das via tus besos
en la oscuridad
dando me alientos
para seguir con esta locura
la busqueda del poder del sol

her silence

it deafens...
like the sound of thunder in my ear.
it withers my heart.
making me feel sluggish.
is it cause she cant see me...
have I turned invisible.
waiving my arms...
try to signal her.
i do not register on her monitor.
feel the tears come.
the pain wash over me.

i dont know where this came from. i have my ideas. complex patterns of life. words paint the pictures of the thoughts.

i went out last night. got together with some bloggers. it was fun. i life for those moments. got to hang with sonrisa. i had missed the crew. i really did. well...catch you on the flip side. time for lunch.

los perdidos sufren menos...

nurse a broken heart.
from things lost.
dissapointments in life.
never turns out...
the way it should.

sorry. my poor attemp at a poem. meshing too many thoughts into very few words. i apologize for this sad attempt. i do like the title. lol.

you name it...

un amor eterno.
que nunca se acaba.
de cuando estabamos chicos.
robandole pedazos de tiempo.
para estar solos.
mano en mano.
olivdando el mundo.
aunque por algunos minutos.
descansando en nuestros sueños.
con besos de estrellas.

las lagrimas de dolor

te espero
mas no te encuentro
recuerdo el tiempo
que bese tus lagrimas
el amor que hundia mi corazon
queria curarlo todo
pero no me alcanzo
para borar ese dolor
te abrazo
pero no te siento
solo el hueco de aire
que dejaste en mi
lleno con mi amiga
las soledad


this is a weird blend of poem. i wrote it last night. it was written in my head. i picked up my son Elijah from my mother in law. he was crying. i wanted to solve all his problems. eventually i fed him, but the huge tears were there. i kissed them goodbye and he was calm. it was nice.

la mujer de la rosa

sitting here...
thinking of her...
lips leaving her signature...
one not soon to forget.

looks forward to meeting them again...
locked in passion...
feeling the tender...
sweet skin as they convey
their surrender.

no se de donde

quiero ser una navaja
punzo cortante
poder romper mi piel
pulgar el veneno vil
que me has dejado
sacarte de mi sangre
asi para poder
ver un dia sin dolor
dejar de
sentir tus labios
que me queman
con palabras
dejandome solo
herido del corazon.

los besos

te tiro los besos
en el aire
esperando que el viento
te los hagan llegar
sueño el dia
que nuestros labios
se unan
en realidad
quizas nunca
pero sigo soñando
en ti
en nosotros.

el amor callado

I look at her and kiss her.
Those soft luscious lips.
They make me feel complete.
Transfering her life energy to me.
Breathing it in.
Nurturing her in my arms.
Letting my soul heal her.
While she heals me.

la veo y la beso.
esos labios tan llenos y delicados.
me hacen completo.
pasando su energia a mi.
tomo su esencia.
acariciandola en mis brazos.
dejando que nuestras almas se curen.

her lips

try to reach into her soul
via her lips
breathing her in slowly
hoping it takes
the sense of being content
not asking for much
just a little bit of joy
enough to keep melancholy at a distance

she stops by looking in
asks me, "where have you been?"
need to talk to you
ignore her the best i can
focus on the moment of content
or do i prefer being malcontent
not sure which one
close my eyes for the time being
wishing it just passes