her silence

it deafens...
like the sound of thunder in my ear.
it withers my heart.
making me feel sluggish.
is it cause she cant see me...
have I turned invisible.
waiving my arms...
try to signal her.
i do not register on her monitor.
feel the tears come.
the pain wash over me.

i dont know where this came from. i have my ideas. complex patterns of life. words paint the pictures of the thoughts.

i went out last night. got together with some bloggers. it was fun. i life for those moments. got to hang with sonrisa. i had missed the crew. i really did. well...catch you on the flip side. time for lunch.

hurt

most people talk about their feelings. i tend to let them dissipate. most of the problems one faces are superficial problems. omg...my nail broke. ok. i do not have those issues. you get the picture. i just want this pain to go away. maybe i am using the wrong terms too. the words do not ever fully reflect what we feel. at any rate, i have been prescribing me some hard liquor. some hard rock music. (i.e. ministry, nine inch nails) you know the classics. let the music fill my core. solidifying my veins. turning them into poison. i know...i am being dramatic.

los perdidos sufren menos...

nurse a broken heart.
from things lost.
dissapointments in life.
never turns out...
the way it should.

sorry. my poor attemp at a poem. meshing too many thoughts into very few words. i apologize for this sad attempt. i do like the title. lol.

you name it...

un amor eterno.
que nunca se acaba.
de cuando estabamos chicos.
robandole pedazos de tiempo.
para estar solos.
mano en mano.
olivdando el mundo.
aunque por algunos minutos.
descansando en nuestros sueños.
con besos de estrellas.

getting away...

buenos dias.

i have a burger and potatoe salad. it should be good. i also have some strawberries and yogurt. what have you got? i was thinking about tomorrow. maybe i can get away for some appetizers. you are busy i bet?

Volovan - Monitor

las lagrimas de dolor

te espero
mas no te encuentro
recuerdo el tiempo
que bese tus lagrimas
el amor que hundia mi corazon
queria curarlo todo
pero no me alcanzo
para borar ese dolor
te abrazo
pero no te siento
solo el hueco de aire
que dejaste en mi
lleno con mi amiga
las soledad


this is a weird blend of poem. i wrote it last night. it was written in my head. i picked up my son Elijah from my mother in law. he was crying. i wanted to solve all his problems. eventually i fed him, but the huge tears were there. i kissed them goodbye and he was calm. it was nice.