A deep thought

This deep thought comes to you from Lady Gaga. Lol. I know crazy huh. Well...the lyrics "I am your biggest fan, I'll follow you around until you love me". It is a catchy tune. You can thank my kids for hijacking my radio. They listen to 96.3 on the way to school for like 10 mins. Maybe less. At any rate, those lyrics got stuck in my subconcience. I opened my sketch book/journal and found some photos of when I went to a CD signing of Maldita's album Monstros. It was a nice walk down memory lane.

Impulsos

Quiero dejar que mis pasiones me lleven. Pero se que debo parar. Ponerle un alto. Solo soy humano. Se que me gusta sentir la atencion. La atencion que tu me das. Pienso que el saber es igual que sentir.

El Vacio

Que haces con eso? Con que lo debo llenar? Es la pregunta que me hago en este dia.

Stress at the old Grind

I hate feeling anxious. Yet, I feel like the show is going to drop and I am going to get in some deep trouble at work. I hate it. Still my boss is a.... Lets says she doesnt make my quality of life any better. So stress and emotions cooked up this.

you silence deafens me
yearn for a verb or a letter uttered
even in anger or to inflict pain
question my sanity for still wanting
repressing my pain for just one bit of your attention.

Anniversaries

12 years of chains. It still bugs me that I can't talk to her abuot everything. She doesnt understand or judges. Sad.

Don't want to want

Yet here I am. Wanting that connection. I feel myself scattered in the wind. Pieces of me floating away like seeds. Landing on unfertil soil. Giving no fruit. This yearning too shall pass.

Lost my faith

I am very angry right now. I hate people that make assumptions. It really really makes me mad. I honestly want to punch this person. I don't believe I have ever felt like this.