i am feeling naughty and wanting

*warning if you are uncomfortable with the topic of sex and infidelity, then veer away*

I guess I am feeling better. One good indicator is that I get a little naughty. hehehe. Yes. There are some thoughts that infiltrate my mind as the breeze sweeps across my face. My window rolled down. I listen to some Julieta Venegas (MTV Unplugged). I see a beautiful girl that I fall in love with for that split second. My body wants her. It is a fleeting thought. I can not pursue. I am sorry. I am a man after all with all my imperfections.

I was driving down 21st Street by Juarez High School. I was making a mad dash for an adventure that could not come sooner. *evil grin* The day at the grind was taking forever to end. Miller time was not coming and I was getting antsy. In more way than one. At any rate, there were two females walking their kids in their strollers. I was admiring them. They were beautiful taking care of their kids. They also had some really nice curves. They had meat on them. They were not stick girls that would topple over. I like girls with meat on them.

My mind flashes back to Eric and Cathy. They were talking about summer flings. I remember summer flings. It has sure been a while. Luigeee was a female soccer player. She was really awesome. We hooked up during one summer. She was a health nut. She did not drink or smoke or eat meat. Well...lol. I will leave that one alone. She was a good time. We had fun and there was no commitment. She knew we were bad for each other. I totally would like to have one of those again. I guess it was not that bad. I held back. lol.

To be continued...

Therapy in light of my sanity.

Sonrisa believes I need therapy. She is more than likely right. I told her, "I have friends for a reason. They can hear me moan about my problems. Just like I listen to their problems". Besides therapist are expensive and I am broke. lol. I was thinking abuot that on my way in. Part of it is because I was watching 2 and a half men for like 10 seconds. The calm guy not Charlie Sheen is getting therapy and he gets encouraged to hit the guy that is causing him stress. Who just happens to be Charlie Sheen!! So...he wails on him with this like plastic or foam bat. lol. I definetly need that kind of destressor. lol.

Crazy thought of the day: I want to run away and joing the circus. lol. Thanks for playing.

To Blog or Not to Blog.

I am not retired. I am still here. There are a lot of things that are going on. It has been really been busy at work and usually that is when I blog. I also dont want to be all depressed on the blog. True...it is really how I feel right now. I just rather not put that negativity out there.

Depression brought on by this weather that does not want to stay warm. It is like we skipped spring all together. We went from Winter to semi Summer. It gets warm for one day and the next it is hailing or freaking cold. It really does not help my mood. I want to be outside. I want to go for walks.

I am also going thru some personal emotions. In the brain reconstruction, memories and emotions are coming up that I am not sure how to deal with. These are emotions I can deal with but the situation that brings the emotions can not be changed. I just wish I could change them. Example, I have six toes (not really), and one of them is really heavy and weighting me down. I can't just cut it off. It would be to painful. It is kind of like that. lol.

I also miss riding my bike to work. I miss my exercise. How weird am I? I know. lol.