The words that haunt me

She slips away from me in dream
no matter how hard I hold on
Her smile seems faint
don't want to close my eyes
fear she is gone
fading like...
an old photograph.

ok...the first line is what was on my mind. the rest just came to me.

Habla conmigo...

The conversations that I have been having are good, but they lack something. Insight. Real emotions or feeling. I want a real conversation. I want to be able to peer into your soul. I want your words to be the path I take to your heart. I also want the thoughts I share to strike a chord in you. Move your being to want more. Particularly of me. The things I have to offer.

Please do not mistake this note to be about anyone in specific. Okay...maybe it is about you. *pointing* lol.

My eyes are hurting. I am not sure if it is because of staring at this damn screen. I just want to go to sleep right now. There are tons of things I am wanting to work on the house. I need to get a lawnmower. I want an electric one. I am also thinking about a old school one that you push. There is potential for a garden in front and in back. I am not sure. So much to do. aughh!!!