I dreamt of you.

It was lunch time. We were figuring out where to sit. I saw you there. She was waving her hand around. Someone else pointed it out. It was an engagement ring. My heart was broken. I had just found out that I was going to be canned. It was more bad news. I should have thought about my home. I woke up.

The dream left me sad. Yet there was not time to dwell. I had to get ready to get to work.

Las cosas que te quiero decir...

I open my mouth. Para decirte algo...pero a medias paro. I can't seem to continue the thought. Either I lost it or can't seem to bring my heart to tell you. Decirte lo que siento en ese momento. I know the tide will change. Al rato no te voy a buscar. My heart will not need you anymore and I will have moved on. Aun asi...te sigo buscando. I just wait for the day I no longer think of you. La obsesion de tu imagen borrado de mi mente para siempre. Fading like picture.

All I want to do is go to Six Flags....

It seems to be the main thought in my kids thoughts. If I were to take them, I bet they would still be bothering me with the same thought.

The summer is getting hot. I have been doing the lawn work myself this year. It is good. I paid someone last year to do it. I finally got my lawnmower back from a family friend. The grass looks beautiful. It grew nice and strong. All with one bag of weed and feed. I think I need to switch up the fertilizer to something like debug and feed or something catchy at Menards.

I dream of days just chilling in the back. I do need a portable tent of some sort that covers very well without killing my grass. I have a lot of grass. I love grass. I didnt know that was one of my dreams of having a lot of grass. Well...I had an idea when I was living with in laws. Since it wasnt my place, I didnt want to get invested and then leave all that money. There is nothing like your own.

I miss blogging on a regular basis. There are a million thoughts floating around up there that need an open forum to roam free.

La nota

Solo me tomo una semana
para limpiarme de ti
Tu veneno potente se expulso
en gotas de sangre
caido de mis ojos
como lagrimas de penas ajenas

ahora miro hacia el pasado
como una noche sola
de manos prestadas sin compromiso
suelto de todo sentido
solo pasar el tiempo
y acabar en un trago amargo

This Door is Always Open

The sun is out. I am happy. I just wish I had money to enjoy the sun.

I am happy to know her asnwer. It is a whopping no. Ok. She didnt say no. I am just deriving the answer from her actions. Still I am ok with that answer today.

The summer is firming up. I am going to a concert. YAY!!!! The last concert I went to was lame. I went to go see Cafe Tacuba. I lost one of my companions and the other started crying. Ugh. Still in her moment of desperation she did make out with me. It could have been the beer. Lol. I guess the title should be more of a confession. It was good and natural.

Movie I am digging right now is Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist. The soundtrack is phenomenal. I am totally loving it. I know. You just cant beat lyrics like:

I wanna build
Buildings high for you
But the costs
Like other costs
I can't afford you
I always take the wrong way
This is why this love can stay
And I want to change
Change the way we always have
And to make different plans
And try not to make this sad
But I always screw it up some way
This is why this love can stay

Shout Out Loud- Very Loud

Tanto que me haces falta...

No tengo tiempo para recordarlo
Me pensa tanto que sigo olvidando
El hecho de no pensar en ti
Aun los alientos que me das
Son ajenos por no poderte responder.

I feel in love with nature today. I went for a walk during lunch. I do this on occasions. This is especially when I need to talk or vent to God or the universe. It helps clear my head. There is a park by my office. There are a lot of trees. The are shedding their seed. The circle things with the seed in the middle. They were all falling in the millions with the wind. It was just beautiful. It reminded me of a scene from Hero with Jet Li. It made me thankful to God. He did this. Maybe to cheer me up or maybe just because he wanted to. I was just lucky to be there to observe it.

Listening to Hello Seahorse! Bestia album. Song: Oso Polar.